Teela Hart

Surviving Domestic Violence

If I Should Think of Love, I’d Think of You


My greatest fear of all the fears in my life is that there will never be one who feels this for me.

“If I should think of love
I’d think of you, your arms uplifted,
Tying your hair in plaits above,
The lyre shape of your arms and shoulders,
The soft curve of your winding head.
No melody is sweeter, nor could Orpheus
So have bewitched. I think of this,
And all my universe becomes perfection.
But were you in my arms, dear love,
The happiness would take my breath away,
No thought could match that ecstasy,
No song encompass it, no other worlds.
If I should think of love,
I’d think of you.”

Shakespeare’s Sonnet

No one has ever gotten anywhere near the proverbial door to my heart save one and I’m sure he doesn’t even know it himself.


Author: Teela Hart

I am a mother, daughter, sister and domestic violence survivor.

39 thoughts on “If I Should Think of Love, I’d Think of You

  1. Hello there 🙂

    Well written…I hope you find someone like this



  2. How ya doin’, Teela my friend?


    • I am doing okay Jonathan, Thank you for asking.
      I’ve been away for a while and will be on the road again soon. But you guys have never been far from my thoughts.


      • ON THE ROAD AGAIN….!!!! 🙂 Thanks for answering back! This poet I know has a hidden sensitive side you would not believe….or maybe you would! 🙂 I’m praying for you…and finding more bloggers who have had similar circumstances. If you have opportunity, check out DESIRING RECONCILIATION…and STILL LOVES DESPITE…. written partly from the new blogger I found and in part from understanding my own wife’s experience. Or—WHERE HAVE ALL THE FAERIES GONE? may give yuou a smile to travel on! ANYWAY, my friend Doris remarked that I was loved…and I cried. That kind of a day! 🙂 Take care…and come back to us…May God richly bless you in your travels!!!!


      • You are such a kind soul. Thank you so much for the referrals and the prayers. I’ve missed everyone so much. I’m back, for the next few days anyway.





  3. I am happy to see such traffic Teela. 🙂


  4. Reading that sonnet took me back many years. I’ve always loved Shakespears work. I think you would like Sonnet 116 since you found something that spoke to you in the one you have posted. It is in fact one of my favorites as it speaks to love but a love that does not ask us to change who we are to please another but to be loved simply for who we are.

    Let me not to the marriage of true minds
    Admit impediments. Love is not love
    Which alters when it alteration finds,
    Or bends with the remover to remove:
    O no! It is an ever-fixèd mark
    That looks on tempests and is never shaken;
    It is the star to every wandering bark,
    Whose worth’s unknown, although his height be taken.
    Love’s not Time’s fool, though rosy lips and cheeks
    Within his bending sickle’s compass come:
    Love alters not with his brief hours and weeks,
    But bears it out even to the edge of doom.
    If this be error and upon me proved,
    I never writ, nor no man ever loved.


  5. SORRY—I’ve not available…(an egocentric reply of a foolish prideful man!) ❤ 🙂


  6. Reblogged this on By the Mighty Mumford and commented:


  7. You took the hardest step, the first step. You have been hurt so much yet you have a gentle heart. You’re not a bitter person and you have God guiding your way. Dating guys who are not the one may help. Dating will build confidence, allow you to really understand who you are in a relationship. You are a beautiful person. I’m sure so many emotions go thru your head. I see you in a loving relationship. We never know when but any length of time is precious. Your heart shines and all you need are the right people to see it. Hugs.


    • You have brought tears to my eyes with such beautiful thoughts of me. You honestly are the light in my darkness.
      Sometimes or actually most times it is hard to accept that I am ever a good person as I heard the exact opposite of that for so man years, but you never fail to point out that I do have a loving heart and I will always treasure that.
      Lot of hugs and love to you.


      • Hugs! I was not able to express pure emotion. I have come so far being apart of this group. Everyone is the sister I never had. Everyone of you are special for different reason. You’re a shining light but it hard for anyone let alone someone with past pain. I would love to meet you someday, I think we would have lots of fun. My personality is different, I’m so glad I learned that difference is great. We can all learn from different. It take tremendous strength to take the first step. You are a survivor and strong with an open heart. What’s not to love. Maybe not your hair when wake up or lack of lipstick but who needs that type of asshole anyway. I truly believe it takes a big heart to do the job you do, it takes a special skill to cradle and push at the same time. You are making the difference in the kids and parents life everyday. The little differences add up to a huge difference when their grown and look back. Make you some affirmation cards and put on your mirror. I know you’re a spiritual person, at the end of meditation or in place of, focus on who you are, what you know you are not what you’ve been told. If you can reduce the negative talk by drowning out with all the positives. XO


      • Light,
        Before I became a part of the WP family I literally had NO friends. Not one. Not even fair weather friends. I now have good friends. Friends who’ve been where I’ve been and friends who’ve never been whee I’ve been. I feel the same about all of y’all here. You’re my family. I would still be a lost soul had I not opened myself up here and given myself a voice. My voice was heard and I was accepted with open arms. It seems that I cry a lot b/c I am no longer alone and I never want anyone to ever feel alone the way that I did for so long.
        I would love to meet you someday as well. Celebrating our differences is special and to BE celebrated.
        I will work on those affirmation cards. I never thought to do that, and it’s a brilliant idea. Especially for someone like me who has been dominated by negativity for what seems like my whole life.
        I do treasure our friendship as all the friendships I’ve developed here.
        Lots of love to you
        ❤ ❤ ❤


      • Have a great Friday and think of how you’re going to treat yourself this weekend. Talk to you later. Hope to get my Award letters out today,may have to slide until the weekend.I woke up at 2:30 and haven’t laid back down since. 🙂


      • I hope you have a wonderful weekend and take care of yourself as well. Take your time on the award. Don’t rush yourself.
        Love and hugs
        Tee ❤


  8. Hang in there sista,


  9. muahhhhhhh! ❤


  10. You can never go wrong when you quote The Bard.
    Very moving post Teela.


  11. I understand your feelings on this one. I have this same doubt and fear. A fear which I am struggling terribly with.


  12. I can completely identify with your feelings on this one, Teela. Hugs, Ali xxx


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