Teela Hart

Surviving Domestic Violence

Hell Is Too Good For You!!!!!!!!

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Faded denim jeans, black T, work boots and an Allman Brother’s cap fit like a glove to his 6′ frame. With a god-like stride, he strutted the halls, the kitchen, and the bedrooms all the while barking orders like a dog strait out of hell. “Git yur shit packed, everythin’, I don’t wana see anything lef’ within viewing distance.”

M, my daughter, inconsolable, gathered her clothes, stuffed animals, and any toys she could manage to carry  Her “I love Daddy” t-shirt stained with spaghetti sauce and matching shorts crumpled and  wet with tears stuck to her little body.  R, trembling, tears tracing the creases in his strained face obeyed, no questions asked. Their hearts ripped from their chests, their trust forever broken they made their way to the living room and awaited further instruction. They cried, begged and pleaded with Jon to let them stay, however, their pleas had no effect on Jon’s stone cold heart.

“Now git out.” Disbelief consumed my oldest son who had been staying with us at the time. He helped the children 11 and 9 years old. Carey glanced over at Jon and Jon gave him a little smirk. My son ignored him and continued to the car that he had finally loaded with everything they owned.  In the matter of a moment he nonchalantly approached the car.

“Get outta that fuckin’ car, unpack yur shit, and let that be a lesson to ya.  Without me you ain’t nothin’ and you ain’t got nothin’.

At the time, I was at the Domestic Violence Center gathering every  little bit and piece of information I could to plan my escape. I had no idea this had taken place until a few days ago.

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I am convinced hell wouldn’t even have this sorry excuse for a human. I’m not even sure that son-of-a-bitch is human at all and I am certain hell would be too good for him.

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Author: Teela Hart

I am a mother, daughter, sister and domestic violence survivor.

40 thoughts on “Hell Is Too Good For You!!!!!!!!

  1. It is tragic that these animals treat children like non-humans! My kids also endured this type of manipulation-and then that animal who hated everything about the kids suddenly wants to take them from their mother! Definitely not even good enough for hell-where would they go?

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  2. Self confidence is the best outfit. Rock it and own it.

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  3. Keep going. Your strength inspires 🙂

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  4. I am so sorry. You did get out just in time. It would have gotten worse, since he possessed such poor boundaries with children. I am glad your child/children have trusted you with this, it says good things about the relationship you have with them. They are so lucky to have you looking out for them.

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    • Thank you so much for saying that. Your support means a lot to me. I want to be the mother they need for a change and I certainly hope I am accomplishing that today.

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  5. Oh, I feel sick for you and your children. Never fails to astound me how heartless abusers can be to those who just want to love them. God bless you for what must have been a very difficult post to write.

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    • I am really still reeling from it all.
      I do want to tell you that I spoke (commented) with Ben Huberman concerning the lack of DV articles in Freshly Pressed. He asked me to send him one and I tweeted the one you wrote about DV’s critical state. I hope you don’t mind.

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      • I’m sorry that you still feel impacted by what your children went through. However, I reckon that children are more resilient than we sometimes think so I do hope that yours don’t feel it as keenly as you clearly do.

        Teela, I also want to say thank you for:

        (1) raising the issue about Freshly Pressed – it would be great (and important) if more people had access to the amazing insights I see shared on WP every day
        (2) Picking out my post (from so many excellent blogs) to send. I’m truly humbled.

        You are one amazing and determined DV campaigner!

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      • I really owe you the thanks for being so supportive in a time of turmoil for me. We will get there. We will raise awareness wherever there are ears to hear and eyes to see. This injustice we suffered cannot go to waste, we have to use it to right the wrong. I can honestly say, I may go down, but I won’t go down without a fight.
        Thank you again Triple S.

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      • Eloquently stated. If survivor experiences can help anybody else avoid the devastation of domestic abuse, they’ve got to be worth sharing.

        Keep fighting Teela!

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  6. WOW!!!!!! It’s one thing for us adults to process abuse (verbal,physical/mental), but for small children who grow up with these deep seated scars in completely unacceptable! How strong you had to have been to escape that living hell on earth! There are no words that you have not already said to yourself to help ease this pain~and heal the wounds! I will never understand how one human can so viciously destroy innocent lives. 😦

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    • I will never understand it either. I have been so angry over that for the past few days I just want to explode. I truly find it hard to believe he has a soul.
      Yet now he loves them so much and cares so much. Please…..that man has never cared about anyone but himself. Thank you for commenting. I need that kind of support and validation.

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  7. Hell is too good for those who hurt others over, over, and over again, and yet, there’s NOWHERE else for those who hurt others to live, because the people who hurt others WILL BE tortured by her/his guilty conscience, for as long as the person shall live.

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  8. Thank you Teela – I look forward!

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  9. I am glad You are sharing this blog. Powerful

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  10. It reminds me of the time I finally said I wanted a divorce. I didn’t scream it. I didn’t yell it. I simply stated it in a moment when I had been trying to get away from his barrage of beratements and insults. He told me he would go after custody, that he would tell the courts I was crazy and he would make sure I never saw them again. I told him to do what he had to do, but I wanted out. His solution was to pull our three young children into the bedroom with us, and sit against the door so I had nowhere to go. He then announced to the children I wanted to leave them and him. Their immediate response was of course to burst into tears and beg me not to go. They were a weapon in his mind, ones he knew how to use quite effectively. Someone who can objectify a child like that… There are just no words.

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  11. Grrrr people like him are just a waste of our oxygen supply…

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  12. I hate these people. I really do. I wish every person who acted with zero regard for others like this would simply be struck dead on the spot.

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  13. You’re right: Hell is too good.
    Anyone who purposely tortures children is not human

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  14. Dang. How traumatic for the poor kids.

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    • They will never be the same and seeing a therapist and I hate him for it. And I hate myself for staying long enough for something like that to happen. I am very angry and I hope he does go strait to hell. And I’ll probably go to hell for hating him for it. Thanks for taking the time to comment, it means a lot.

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      • It takes a long time for the hate and bitterness to get worked out, a lot of effort and pain along the way. It’s important for you and your kids to do that work. I’d say you are on your way. I’m sorry he let you and your kids down. You needed better. You deserve better. Your kids will work this out, they have lots of time. Kids are amazing.

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      • Thank you so much for your kind words. It means a lot to me. God bless you.

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