Teela Hart

Surviving Domestic Violence

Deaf Ears

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Crying

Crying

I called to wish you a happy birthday today and the words “I love you” fell on deaf ears.

The bruises I took for you.

The rants I endured for you.

The hundreds of times I defended you.

The hours I held your hand when you gave birth to your son; my grandson.

The hours I spent defending the hateful accusations hurled at you.

The agony I feel as he plays his games with you.

The pain in my heart will never leave me

Until I hear “I love you too”

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Author: Teela Hart

I am a mother, daughter, sister and domestic violence survivor.

19 thoughts on “Deaf Ears

  1. I was thinking of you today. I’m still struggling in my darkness, but I’m writing today to try to break it. I just posted about how this blogging world has helped me, and I included your name in it. It is my way of saying thank you from the bottom of my heart for your support recently. Please take care of yourself.

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    • Thank you so much, breaking the silence is hard I know. I am very honored and proud to call you friend and survivor. You are a survivor, remember that.

      Big Big Hugs to you.

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  2. Teela, I hope the pain does diminish.
    Fyi…the comments are not visible. Very dark here. In case you didn’t want it that way.

    Diana

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    • Thank you so much HW. Would you happen to know how I can fix that? I didn’t realize the comments are not visible.

      My posts cause me to feel extremely vulnerable and exposed and that is by my choice in an effort to heal. I guess you could say I’m raw and it sometimes comes out in my writing. I recently made a post, “I Moved On.” I nearly delete it every day but I don’t. Someone may read it and be encouraged and validated. The same is true for me with the comments. So…..thank you.

      I would really like your thoughts on the aforementioned post it if you get the time. I’m grammatically challenged as I’m sure you’ve noticed, and I do value your comments, they mean a great deal to me.

      Big Hugs
      Teela

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      • T, 1) I’m TECHNICALLY challenged (actually, pretty hopeless) so I’m the last person to ask for guidance on that but ask somebody or go to your dash, then try appearance.

        2) Truthfully, I had started that other post and then moved on (pun intended). It’s not so much your grammar as the overdescriptions. I know it comes from both the rawness, the realness, and pleasure you take with words and the expressing. You know, I came really close to doing a post on not overdoing it, not trying too hard (not to make you feel bad. That’s what I was going to name the post). If you’re up for it, I’d be willing to take an excerpt of one of your posts and, with thanks on my blog, edit it for my readers. So it wouldn’t be the Mafia, but just me =) snipping and trimming. Sort of like my save spit posts with examples supplied. I’d link to you to promote your blog. If that’d be too hard for you take, of course ignore the offer. I also couldn’t do this for a while, possibly months, with the Race underway and other things in the works. Feel free to delete this part of comment…eerrr if it ends up visible. =)

        Xxxx
        HW

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      • Please do, in your time. I am interested to see what you do with it. I will not feel ‘slighted’ in the least. I want to learn and I welcome your input.
        Thanks for puttin’ up with me.
        I wouldn’t dare delete your comment. I only want to improve in order to reach as many as possible.
        At the same time I want to paint a picture as real to the mind as the air I breath.
        Keep in mind I will only shed a tear or two when you prune my tree so use lots of anesthesia…..lol

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      • lol

        As much as you welcome constructive feedback, you are a tender soul, as many of us wordaholics are.

        I don’t use any chemicals (hence holistic. I did a post last yr with pic of my holistic pantry and info on natural remedies) but I’ll see what I can come up with for an analgesic.

        I won’t remember which post we’re talking about, and I may not necessarily use that one. Almost doesn’t seem right, when you were pouring your heart out. But do flag it for the future.

        Xxx
        Diana

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      • Will do, but know that you are welcome to use it.
        And hey, I’m holistic as well, holistically committed to chemicals. 😉

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      • They do dull the pain.

        :/

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  3. Powerful message, Teela! I will keep you and your family in my prayers. I always hope for the end of mean games and mistreatment. I fear for the children, also the weaker ones, sometimes the wives/girlfriends, on other occasions in a gay relationship it is a man who is being hurt. Such a profound blog filled with meaningful messages. You are touching lives, Teela, sharing this with others. Hugs, Robin

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  4. Reblogged this on By the Mighty Mumford and commented:
    A TWISTED MAN ISN’T THROUGH TWISTING THINGS AND PEOPLE…TO TWIST THINGS HIS WAY!!!!

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  5. After twisting your daughter’s life up it is only natural that a twisted man would defend himself by twisting the story. But how, these days, can one find this out before-hand? 😦

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  6. Reblogged this on My Little "Corner" on WordPress and commented:
    Trapped, in the Cycle of Abuse

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  7. And, you just keep on waiting for something that NEVER happens, and get yourself trapped, in that false sense of belief that the person will be nicer to you, and so, the vicious cycle of abuse still keeps rolling.

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