Teela Hart

Surviving Domestic Violence




 My witness today is only the beginning of my great exodus.

Spending many hours in the emergency room was nothing new; however, this would be the last time the visit would be on a gurney instead of standing along side one, caring for patients. 

“Dr. Spade” sauntered into the room. He adjusted his silver, wire rimmed glasses causing his crisp, white, lab coat to tug upward distorting his name printed in blue script.  His brow furrowed as he breathed in, and let out a long deliberate sigh.  It was then that my countenance took an unrecoverable nosedive; shame shrouded me like a heavy blanket, the weight of which was unbearable.  The cause of my injury was not only indelible in my mind but in my medical chart as well.

The wait, following the MRI, was excruciating; worry over the extent of my injury overwhelmed me and it was all I could do to maintain my composure.

I could tell by the look on Dr. Spade’s face that the results were not good, as once again he let out a deep sigh.  “I’m afraid, my dear, that the MRI results show that you have a significant avulsion (separation) of the network of nerves (the brachial plexus) that conducts signals from your spine to your arm, shoulder and hand, causing the paralysis.” 

In complete brokenness, I recalled to myself, the events that led me to the hospital.

That morning was no different from any other; the ritual of debasement, offhanded comments about my housekeeping skills, and the inability to care for my children permeated the morning silence with a thunderous clap.

 “Let’s go, let’s go!  You gotta take me to work this mornin’ and I can’t afford to be late.”

I donned my jeans and a T-shirt swiftly to avoid any other outbursts; headed out the door and made my way to the car.

Bewildered by the early morning tantrum, I rested my head against the passenger window trying to recount, in my mind, what had made him unleash his fury this time but the cause had once again evaded my capture.

Sensing my inward, guttural disdain, he abruptly skidded the car to the shoulder of the road and brought it to a screeching, halt.  Instinctively I flinched as he clutched my neck with his leathery hand, simultaneously clouting my head against the passenger window.  He then shoved my head downward, between my legs with such force that I could hear the vertebrae in my neck pop and grind in my ears, and just as quickly as he attacked, he retreated, releasing his grasp.    

“You will drive home right now!  You will clean the house; make yourself presentable and you better not be late pickin’ me up!  Do you understand me?  We’ll fuckin’ finish this when I get home!”  To drive his point home he squeezed my left arm with the force of a vice grip before getting back onto the road.  In the parking lot, at his place of employment, he gently kissed my cheek before exiting the car as his co-workers passed by.

An unimaginable fear overwhelmed me when I realized that my right arm would not obey the mental command to open the car door.  Therefore, I maneuvered over the console and into the driver’s seat.  Manipulating the gears, the steering wheel, the gas and the brake was a monstrous undertaking considering my arm was numb and my body was quaking.

  He called incessantly that day to make sure I had been performing my “wifely” duties and to inform me that he had a ride home after work.

When he finally did arrive home, he took notice of the unkempt house, the unkempt kids and me.  He flew into a rage, and barreled toward me with all the ferocity of an F5 tornado.  Our eyes locked and the only thing I could see was the blazing fire of hell contained within.  Attempting an escape into the hallway proved futile; grabbing my injured arm he yanked me toward him and hurled me into the wall with such force the closed doors in the hallway rattled.  Any insult he may have hurled in my direction fell on deaf ears.  The only thing I could remember was the onslaught of abuse, and the unprecedented desire to escape his grasp with my life.  

Dr. Spade, turned around and looked me squarely in the eyes, “you don’t deserve this Teela, you have to get out and move on, that man could have snapped your neck like a twig and if that had happened, I would be pronouncing you dead right now.”



Leaving the hospital with an hideous splint was depressing and degrading.  On my return home I never received an apology and my children were informed by Jon, the injury was the result of a delayed reaction from an auto accident I had been in nine months prior.  They believed him.

The echo of Dr. Spade’s words, pierced what was left of my soul and I conceded.  It was time to open the door to my cage and walk out and that is exactly what I did.  I was recaptured nine months later; the door slammed shut behind me and my treacherous descent into the abyss soon followed.

Author: Teela Hart

I am a mother, daughter, sister and domestic violence survivor.

26 thoughts on “Caged

  1. Teela, cannot believe I missed this one.
    Powerful post.


  2. Emotional stuff but I can’t stop reading it.


  3. Wow. I’m at a loss for words, but your strength is amazing. So brave of you to write this. Keep writing your heart out. Big hugs 🙂

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  4. As with most of the abused women I’ve encountered, when reading such a vivid story, I’m sure as it did with me it does to with them, the flashes of what I see in your story can be easily interchangeable with my husband and me. And with that, it is so incredibly hard to “like” an event like this. However, what I like is that you are talking. It is spilling out and as it continues to do so you will feel such a release. Thank you for sharing. xx

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  5. Thank you for sharing your story… Although I did not suffer abuse to the same extent as you did, I know it is extremely painful to even think about writing all of mine down right now…so I can imagine what it must take for you to share. I look forward to reading more 🙂



    • It is a difficult thing to do, however, necessary for my healing and I hope that in some way it will speak to someone’s heart. Abuse doesn’t always come in the form of physical injury. Excessive exertion of control, financial abuse, isolation, mental and emotional abuse just to mention a few, The unseen wounds can be as bad, if not worse.


      • True…Maybe some day soon I will feel like sharing my story more completely, when it isn’t so fresh and when I feel like I am getting on my feet again. Part of me still doesn’t want to accept it all or “demonize” him… But I do know that I want to find out where this breath of fresh air and freedom will take me.


      • You are in my thoughts and I look forward to your future posts. Take your time and know that I am here anytime you need to talk.


      • Thank you so much 🙂


  6. Hi Teela. You’re welcome. You’ve a powerful story to tell, which you articulate very well. I hope as many people as possible get to hear it. And, you’re welcome over at Avalanche of the Soul any time!


  7. I’m so sorry you went through this. Abusers are extremely hard to escape, because they are so manipulative and we are conditioned to their control. Most women that I know have tried to leave several – or many – times before finally making the break. I look forward to reading more of your story.


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